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katie motivated me to write in here.
i cant even remember the last time i actually wrote in here, besides some lame-o picture updates. livejournal always reminds me of high school. its not that its immature or ive outgrown blogging, its just that theres so many high-induced dramatic times and so many emotions that i can still associate with this site.
certain parts and aspects of my life are completely different. some chapters have closed, many new beginnings have begun. god, i feel like im talking to the eighteen year old becky barely out of high-school and mum's house.
who knew i would be here, in england, where i am right now? its weird though, how everything fell right into place for me. like, how over the years, mike w. and i finally went our seperate ways. how college didnt quite work out and after years of exploring life, i.e. hitting rock bottom, i reached out to the military and got more than i expected.
i remember my summer as a 19 year old, sitting around, dead broke, living out of my car, jumping on roadtrips/flights to different parts of the country at any given time, snorting more lines from $1 bills than i even want to think about. i dont even really know the point of this entry, to be honest.
anyway, its been 2 years to the day since i left boston, nervous, unexperienced, and a certain need to jump into the unexpected. thank you england, iraq, france, poland, italy, spain, portugal and so on and so forth for giving me the life experiences i think ive been longing for. but, mainly england, for all the people and culture and everything else i got out of here.
its been fun, its been swell, but its time to go, because this chick... well, she has a plane to catch in few hours and is ready for another chapter to close, and a new beginning to begin.
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[07 Jun 2009|12:13am] |
48th Security Forces Christmas Party, December 08
( THE LAST 6 MONTHS... )
Everythings going well. I'll be home in the States in FOUR days. Cannot wait.
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[30 Apr 2009|07:25am] |
I'm getting married June 19th. Who'd guess?
In September I should be going back to Arizona for my next duty station.
Also, been busy, busy busy. Since December, I've been to Paris, Rome, Barcelona and Amsterdam. Life has been good, I'd say.
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[14 Aug 2008|07:04pm] |
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just like that, he died.
just like that.
just like when i walked into the ER 2 minutes prior he was still alive, moving around.
and there he was, right infront of me, swarmed by doctors trying to save his life.
and the young boy died right infront of my eyes this afternoon.
ive never missed green grass so much.
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[09 Aug 2008|12:15pm] |
i took this from my other journal which no longer lets me update
[08 Apr 2008|08:22am]
the captain of my squadron called me to work on my day off. he told me this morning sergeant waters from lakenheath armed up for work and went into our bathroom and took his life. he was on my deployment team but was deemed "incompitent" and after training in nevada, was told he could not deploy.
sgt waters was in for 18 years and had been shit on by everyone, including people under him and the newest of airman. while we were training it seriously broke my heart to see the way this man was treated by everyone. so senior airman nelson (my best friend) and myself would go out of our way to try to be nice to him and talk to him. one day when we were walking to work i saw him walking by himself and asked how he was doing and how he liked lakenheath. he said he had just been there since june and it doesnt matter what he thinks about it, his happiness depends on his wifes and his wife didnt like it. he said before lakenheath they were based in grand forks, north dakota, where she was originally from, so it was hard for her to leave her friends and family and she hadnt adjusted to england. he said he had 2 boys, 15 year old twins who also didnt like lakenheath because its hard moving at that age. but he said hes been married for years and years to his wife and he loves her more than anything.
he was telling me how his wife was really sick and how his boss was great(who is here with me and is my boss now, who i believe plays a large part in the events leading to this because of the way he would treat him). even though this guy treated him like shit ALL the time for everything he said and did, always talking down to him even infront of airman like myself, sgt waters STILL had great things to say about his boss.
i told him its difficult to adjust but everything happens for a reason and maybe this deployment could help him out with money and whatnot, and im sure everything would get better with his family.
even riding around on the bus people would just antagonize him in vegas. id sit behind him and i even told a few people off before, people way above me. and theres a few sergeants here who were mean to him so ive pulled them aside and told them how i felt about sgt waters and how people need to stop shitting on him.
but sgt waters had a tough time at training in vegas and other sergeants pushed so he would not deploy with us. and he didnt. he not only lost this deployment but he also went back to lakenheath and they punished him and took him off flight (the basic police job we do everyday), and ontop of all the shit he took, they gave him a job that a fucking airman usually does. so after sgt waters trained with us and after he was looking forward to this deployment, they took it away from him. and im sure he went back to lakenheath and was belittled by everyone there even worse then he had it before.
so this morning sgt waters got his M4 like he did on every other day, went into the building he has gone into every morning for work, and took his life. this man was the nicest, most polite guy, never had a negative thing to say about anyone, and everyone fucking pushed him to do what he did, he never did anything to one god damned person and because of the people i work with now, sgt waters lost balad and now hes gone.
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[02 Aug 2008|06:02am] |
so, its been just about, forever.
my life burmuda triangled to the rest of the world, and its almost time to pick up where i left off.
my tour of iraq is coming to an end. it wont be long until im back in my bed, in my civilan clothes and back in a somewhat normal life again.
( Read more... )
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[25 Mar 2008|05:53pm] |
im guessing its easter today by the my size bunny cake being cut up in the DFAC.
i remember a year ago this day. it was raining and i was wearing my favorite blue adidas sweats driving around mesa. my boyfriend and i had gotten into a fight and i took it a little too personal this time, because i made my way down to the superstition mall and walked into the air force recruiter’s office. it could have been any one of those offices, army, navy, coast guard or marines, but the other branches were all on lunch. he asked how soon i wanted to leave, and my response was,
"I’d leave today if I could".
and here i am one year later, on the other side of the world working in iraq with more changes in my life imaginable.
and no, i dont regret a thing.
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[04 Jan 2008|07:08am] |
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turns out my boyfriend didnt get the same deployment i did.
he'll be going to qatar while ill be 40 or so miles north of baghdad.
maybe its better this way?
at the end of this month ill be relieved of duty here in england. for the first time since september, ill be in the states for pre-deployment training. then ill be in kuwait for several weeks and off to iraq i go.
and for some reason, i never seem to mind these sort of things.
♥
hi.
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| live and learn |
[25 Aug 2007|05:41pm] |
When you're in the military, you meet some of the coolest people you'll probably ever meet.
That's been figured out so far.
One of the most important things I've realized is the right decision doesn't always mean it's going to be the easiest.
I wish that had been an easier lesson to figure out.
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[03 Aug 2007|09:55am] |
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I'm at combat training right now. Next month I'll be heading off to England, where I'll be stationed for the next 3 years. I hear in January I'll be deploying to Iraq for 6 months, true or not, i dont mind.
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[30 Mar 2007|06:37pm] |
when you're at a point when everything's been crazy, it doesnt necessarily mean everything has been difficult. although i cannot deny since moving to massachusetts for a short time in july, things haven't been. not so much "difficult", more towards "unsorted", which can sometimes corroborate eachother.
i havent settled completely, 90% of all my belongings are still in the back of my car. very unfortunately, an issue imerged with returning to school last semester, so that never fell into place.
so contrary to popular belief, all the "difficult" and "unsorted" times ive gone through have actually been positive for me. in the long run at least.
im going to absorb this last week or so i have in arizona, because i dont see myself visiting too often after april 10th. that's if everything goes as planned and falls in to place, of coarse.
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[19 Nov 2006|05:34pm] |
hi. i live in the fine state of texas now.
these past 6 months my life has consisted of moving all the time, so really, this time im sticking around for a bit. at least for a semester or two then maybe ill go back to arizona.
i started my job yesterday, and by the end of the night, i was saying "ya'll" for the first time in my life. imagine that?
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[27 Jul 2006|12:39pm] |
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The New Zealand boy I met in Hollywood drove over from NYC to see me.
Then he left Malden and chances are, I'll never see him again.
GODDDD.
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